Saturday, December 05, 2009

the morning after

Felt reeeeeally terribly awful about the env econs paper :( It isn't paranoia- I just KNOW i screwed it up. Bad strategy, if you ask me. WHYWHYWHY didn't I just move on to the essay questions when I couldn't figure out the math questions. I couldn't believe I wrote utter crap for the 10-mark essay in the end. I think if I'd read it today I'd feel like 'dang that's so NOT me!'. I hate regretting anything. Regretting not doing my best on the spot. So much for trying to study hard/smart. On hindsight it isn't so much about not getting that A or B, but not being able to reap what you sow. Mega mega sigh.

Already feeling way better than I did yesterday though. Lunch with env proj mates and some shopping thereafter sure did some good. I bought another dress! :) Really glad that I stayed up to talk to zing and hy last night. It's such a blessing to be able to talk about things freely and not worry about being judged. I remember praying about it before I slept (was rather zonked out by then), and I think I said sorry. For allowing my emotions to get the better of me. For being stubborn. For everything that I could have tried harder in. I just need loads of courage to pull through now. And hopefully a miracle. I actually lost count of the number of times I prayed for miracles this sem. And I couldn't be more thankful that things DID turn out better than I hoped. It's like God always has his ways of working things out. AAHHH. I should really stop being a ball of negativity. Can't wait to see tim later cos he had a gig yesterday (which went well hurray!) He has been trying to get me to watch a movie called The Secret on youtube. Lots of self-help theories about emitting positive energy haha. Something along that line. Which seemed to help him a lot these few days. Hmm I guess I'll watch and see what it's got to say!

Loads of photos to be uploaded. Will try to do so asap! By next week I'd prolly have enough to collate an album in which I'd have at least three different hairstyles haha. Alrighty, time for yoga. Happy holidays all :)

by exalted! at 10:54 am |