:)
My mentor is out of office today so I've more freedom with the time on my hands. Still in the middle of clearing some tasks but I can't help feeling overjoyed about the push sms that woke me up this morning! The fact is, every additional A+ isn't gona make me 10% more intelligent, or help me earn $10,000 more a year. I know full well that the reason I'm happy with my results is because I'm all the more convinced that hard/smart work pays off while complacency doesn't, that the multiple disappointments along the way are not meant to throw me off balance, that passion is what matters, and that emotional support works wonders :)
Fine, I admit, I have something on my mind that I've been dying to say aloud:
In your face, ***** *******!! I'd prolly get into major trouble if I spell that out haha. Anyway, I'm not trying to be a bitch. I just feel that the whole notion of meritocracy is kinda screwed up in terms of how it is practised. Yes, grades are important, grades are useful, but grades are not the most accurate reflection of one's ability and competency.
Okay, I've said it, I feel a lot better now. Now I'm ready to let it go :D
random
1. My mind's here but my heart's in HK!
2. Tanjong pagar/ shenton way has so damn much great food- I wonder how the people who work there stay in shape.
3. I had dinner two days in a row with my folks. This is unprecedented.
4. As an intern, weekends and holidays are really REALLY meant for recharging. I honestly don't do
any work - although there are uncleared ones - because there's no pressure to.
5. I
love my new leather heels. With timmy's vouchers I only paid 10 bucks for them :D Wore them to work and then out to watch Sex and the City 2 with the boys and my feet didn't hurt all day!
6. I'm abstaining from booze after last weekend's drama. Yes it is still haunting me.
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I never expected that things between friends of 12 years would never be the same again. There's nothing else I can do now but to bury myself in work and surround myself with good company.
what a weekend.
Saw this on lindis' fb page:
... it is very difficult to take care of others unless you have first taken care of yourself. What do you need to do for yourself so that you can be available for others? What needs are going unmet? How can you be kind to yourself?I feel worse than awful. I am an adult and I should be responsible for my own actions. I never wana make the same mistake again.
yes/ no/ wait
In retrospect, my answer was 'wait'.
I survived my first day at work! :) Day 1 and I'm already physically exhausted but I'm happy to be learning so much. Time to unwind!
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EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER! Urban planning and micro wrapped it up nicely. Did my best and hoping for the best.
Now there're bigger things to think about and work on :)
sleep please save me
I'm soooo frigging tired right now I'm gona fall asleep like.. 2 seconds later. I think I had terrible time management for both papers today.
If I'm becoming less exam-smart, does it mean I'm gona be better in other aspects? (x
Hardcore proof that I was seriously zonked out by 7pm: On my
International Econs answer paper, where we're supposed to write the module code and module name, I actually wrote
"EC3381 Urban Economies" (COULDN'T EVEN SPELL IT RIGHT, damn it). I corrected it just in time, thank goodness.
Night, world.