Friday, October 03, 2008

subdued

you and your brown eyes told me, people say 'fail to plan and plan to fail', but no one says 'fail to expect and expect to fail'. i saw it, i felt it.

roller-coaster ride of emotions today. i was kinda glad i didn't attend tuesday's bio lect so i could rush down for it right after my dreadful test in the morning, and i could take my mind off the latter, for a while at least. was still feeling a little down as i headed for india lecture thereafter. i'm really thankful for the people around me who somehow helped to lift my spirits- tim who came all the way to school (again), dhan just being dhan in class, angela who just happened to hop off at the busstop i was sitting at, and even kaimin whom i've bumped into for 2 consecutive days and reminded me of his very random "utility-maximising peanut butter waffle" sms haha. and now here i am, thinking about thinking about..thinking.

ever felt like you tried so hard and then suddenly don't feel like trying anymore? i raised the bar, yet i barely crossed it before i slammed hard into it and now the agony is only starting to sink in. yea im humbled, i truly am.

ohyarh, newsflash: i've finally decided to do something about my wisdom tooth/teeth (only 1 and a half so i can't quite decide). brushing my teeth has been quite a torture recently because my gums on my lower jaw are starting to hurt and swell, and i'm really worried that the rest of the teeth will be affected. if i get the green light this coming thursday i'd most probably want the extraction done asap. stitches, anesthesia, (lots of) blood, numbed jaw- these are nothing really new to me but getting my gums sliced open still isn't the most pleasant thought at this point in time. i'd see how it goes then!

this song is almost a decade old but how apt (x
And you know and you know
Cos my life's a mess
And it's starting to show so before
I'm old I'll confess
You think that I'm strong you're wrong
You're wrong
I'll sing my song my song my song
If I did it all again I'd be a nun
The rain was never cold when I was young
I'm still young we're still young
Life's too short to be afraid
Step inside the sun

by exalted! at 10:47 pm |